still seeing what's going on

well hello to those who are not really reading this...lol. well marvin and me are still doing what ever we are doing. he spent the night last night, this morning we were talking about herpes and all the risks involved. i guess i'm trying to convince him that it's ok to start a sexual relationship. he's very worried about contracted this... which is understandable. but i'm starting to get kind of sick of this. he gets to be pleased and all, but he won't do anything for me. i pretty much told him that if this doesn't go any farther, that we'll have to be only friends. it's really not all about the sex or anything... but it's really unfair for me. i give him pleasure that is risk free, and i go home all wound up....

and then things get more interesting. i have this friend in milwaukee that i've been talking to for a few months. i told him about how i'm kind of seeing someone, but not sure where it's going. he got sad, and said, well i guess i'm out of the picture. so i told him about why i wasn't sure what was going on. (told him about the herpes) and he said that's cool. his last girl friend had herpes. and that he really likes me.... so i'm torn. i really like marvin, i want to see it go somewhere, but if he can't except me and my problem, it'll never work. and i like alex, we talk all the time, and he is excepting of me...... so i don't know. we'll see what happens.