things are looking good

Merry Christmas to all! according to my clock.... it is 1:12am, Christmas morning... so HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!

well, alex got a car this past week. very exciting. and he came over weds. night. and yeah, we had a lot of fun. being with him made me feel so good about myself. i felt completely normal. he was the one making all the moves.... "want to go to your bed?", shortly after pulling out condoms..... we came well prepared. and i loved every moment of it. we couldn't keep our hands to ourselves. either we were holding hands, or kissing, he would trace along the outer rim of my ear with his finger, and pet my hair... we talked, played with my cats, watched some t.v., hung out with a few of my friends he has met before. then we fell asleep in each others arms. (awww.... so sweet... even for me...lol) but yeah, it was awesomeness. he promises that he'll be coming up here more often now.

other than that... an ex of mine came to town for the holidays. we dated for nearly 7 yrs. broke up about 3 1/2yrs ago. now lives across the country from home. we remained friends after the breakup...and i knew he was coming to town.

so he called me this morning (technically yesterday morning) ; as alex and i were getting ready for the day, if i had a sled... or if i knew where he put his inner tube... or if he gave it to me at some point... or if it popped... etc. well i didn't. so we made plans to hang out for the evening. but, if i wanted to hang out with him, i would have to meet his new girlfriend. well we went out to a thai food restaurant, chit chatted, hung out at my house. she is a high school english teacher, for the 11th and 12th grades. i give her props for that.... she seems nice... but it was just weird to see my ex rubbing her leg, or taking her hand. this is his first real relationship since our breakup. and we did have a point we were friends with benefits. so it was just awkward to me. but not as bad as i thought it would be.

they seem like an old couple though. going to dinner parties... playing clever little games with friends... there were talking about a pancake party. and how they made a "Louisiana basket" and how they forgot to pack the sugar cane syrup with. because down south, they really don't use maple syrup. and how they have to make a "wisconsin basket" for her folks.... and this is opposed to my and alex's relationship. we're like teenyboppers.... making out in front of others, him laying on me, or whispering in my ear, kissing my neck as i talked to my friends. (i guess in a way it was better that alex went home before my ex came over.... that would have really awkward)

well i have rambled on long enough tonight. (or morning... now it's 1:30am) go good morning/night, and merry Christmas!