all alone for once

wow, a weekend without marvin! it's been so nice not having to worry about waking him up in the morning... or having to cook a meal... cereal has been most of my meals for the last 2 days! to come and go, and not worry about how my house will look when i get back. my ciggs and weed has been lasting me a lot longer with out him being around. i'm loving my solitude!

don't get me wrong... i love hanging out with him, and i like/ care about him a lot... even on the verge of loving him. but he's here all the time.... from the time i get up, to when i get off work, to when i go to sleep at night. i'm just not used to having someone here all the time.... i live alone so i can be alone, have my space, and not worry about what others think, need, or want....

oh! alex got a hold of me! i found out his dad passed away recently... very sad. and his building has to be torn down.... but the reason for him dropping off the face of the earth is still unknown. i'm glad that he's still around and breathing. i was very worried about him.

other than that, not much going on. my sister is getting married in a few months, my kid sister is no longer the cute little girl that i loved hanging out with.... now she's an annoying 8 yr old. so sad.... i work, but not enough... i struggle almost everyday with the stress of making sure bills are paid, cats have what they need, and that there's food in the house.

well that's it for now.