wow

wow.... what an early fucking morning. marvin came over around 2 this morning, very drunk. (but only to find out he was drunker than i first thought) and he was in a very randy mood. so we got to doing things, fine and dandy. the next thing we know is the condom had came off inside me. so he got it out.... and continued on with what he was doing. had to stop him from 1st: not cumming in me... i'm not on birth control and 2nd: he didn't put a new condom on. so he re-wrapped up, and got to it again. in the heat of the moment, he called me his ex's name. we both stopped there. he was very upset about it, and very sorry. but i understood. it happens. i was upset by it, but nothing to kick him out over. (the ex lives in a different state, and has a boyfriend, so i'm not concerned)

anyways, later this morning he wakes up all randy yet. and still drunk. but we got to doing more naughtiness. he appeared all better from earlier. made no mention about calling me a different name. then he told me his still felt drunk, and really didn't remember the events that took place only hrs. before. so i told him... about the condom slipping off, him continuing on with out protection, and calling me by his ex's name. he got a little upset about the name thing. saying that he thought he was over her. but took it better than he originally did.

then after our morning after morning sex, he told me that he knew i had herpes before i told him. i told him that i knew. that his ex roommate/ex best friend told mel that she told him. and mel told me. but i was under the impression that his roommate told him after a couple weeks of us messing around. that she didn't think i would tell him. i was wrong. (when you assume, you make an "ass" out of "u" and "me") she told him back before we ever started messing with each other. only maybe a month after i found out about what i had. we (marvin, his roommate and me) went out to applebee's for lunch one day. (his roommate is my friend as well) and we chit chatted, toked, and they dropped me off at home. he told her that he thought i was hot, and that's when she told him that i have herpes. months before we started anything.

with this new information, my feelings for him grew! knowing he knew from the first time we kissed... it made me feel so good. knowing that he wanted me even with the herpes. he gave me a chance, got to know me, without me knowing he knew. and i asked him out. he said no. that he was not ready for a "relationship". but it's now known that we (me and marvin) sleep with only each other. so i guess it's a step. he knows what i want, and how i feel.

so yeah... wow. i'll be back sometime soonish. bye for now.