awwww.... i really wish marvin would tell me he wants more than just the physical relationship we have. again, i'm watching myself fall for him. there's just something about him.... i don't know what it is, or why i like him so much. i just do. but i don't want to be the first one to bring it up. i exposed my feelings to him before, and it left me hurt. (reason 1 why i shouldn't get involved with him again) but he makes me feel good about myself. we can just goof off, and joke around.... act like kids pretty much. i'm happy around him, i can just be myself and be ok with it. but i would like to know it's more than a passing fancy, or just friends with benefits. (reason 2, i want more than a sex partner... i want a boyfriend) i want to be his girlfriend, i want him to be my boyfriend. i guess i'll go a couple more weeks, see what happens. then i'll bring it up, see where he sits with the idea. i'm not sure if he's looking for a real relationship. for all i know, he could be still hung up about his ex. we just don't talk about it. so yeah.
it's seems like such a lazy day. the one of my 3 cats i see is sleeping, my gecko is sleeping, it's cloudy-windy-and cold outside, and yeah... i'm stoned. thank God for weekends! (well thank God for a lot more than that! thank him for everything.... everyday we should thank him..... yay God!)
well, i guess i should quit rambling.... not that thanking and giving praise to God is rambling ..... it's not. all the other stuff is pretty much just rambling though.... so yeah.... bye for now.
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