blah, fucking blah!

why is every thing so difficult?
why does it seem to never end?
i feel like i've felt this way for years
i feel like i've aged years in months
nothing seems good or right
i feel empty and dirty....
unworthy of love or affection
is there no end to this?
is brighter days just ahead?
i hope so....
i need days of light and love again
i need to feel normal and at peace one more time
for right now....
i feel so lonely and eager for change