it's been great!

well my 26th birthday has come and passed. (oct. 23) went to madison with my friend mel, who's birthday was 3 days before mine. got a nice piece, toked the whole time, ate at an Italian place, got some bumper stickers for my bike, and things like that. oh yeah... i got laid! marvin and i finally decided to express ourselves physically. :) it was awesome! but that was very early morning on my birthday. i got about 3 hrs of sleep for the madison trip. lol. and since having sex we have been spending more time together, he is seeming more into me, more lovey dovey.... i love it! i haven't been this happy for quite sometime.

other then that.... went to a "zombie prom night".... all people dressed as zombies were recorded chasing and "eating" a drunk guy walking down the street. i ended up tripping because of my platform knee high boots....hit my knee, sprained my wrist, and pulled a muscle in my leg. my friend amanda ended up meeting the sidewalk with her face, biting her lower lip, and cracking her knee pretty badly. (she tripped over me after i fell.....lol.... i guess that's what she gets for following so closely) we didn't know how bad her face got it until she washed off all the fake blood.

i watched my friend dez burn her wedding dress and all things the reminded her of her ex husband. her divorce was finalized last week... it was a lot of fun. i got to rip the dress off of her, drank some beer, dez met marvin, and playing with sparklers.

last night was the nightmare before christmas party. pretty awesome! my friends mixed music samples together to go along with the movie "nightmare before christmas". (kinda like the "dark side of the moon" with "wizard of oz") very cool... toked and smoked, drank, hung out with friends i haven't seen for a while, made out with marvin... went home around 3am....and today is halloween. so i went trick or treating with my sisters, my nephew, and a bunch of other kids and adults. i got a small candy bowl full of candy. pretty good for someone who doesn't have kids...lol. i watched my nephew trip and fall at least 15 times. my ankle gave out and i fell and got my knee. great times.

well i guess that's all i got for now. bye for now.

seeing what happens

well, i guess things are going good with me and marvin. we have been talking about all the risks of having sex.... and i think it may happen. he told we need to get condoms that fit properly. and i just picked up some yesterday. so we will see what happens. but other than the whole sex thing, things are awesome! he's made me supper, spends the night and holds me the whole night.... tells me that i'm a strong women, and really likes me. i'm falling for him hard! i really hope things work out. we will see.

other than that... not much going on in my life. i work a lot, hang out with friends, smoke and toke, and things along those lines. i really lead a boring life...lol. and there's nothing i can do about it.

so, that's where i'm going to end this. bye for now.

still seeing what's going on

well hello to those who are not really reading this...lol. well marvin and me are still doing what ever we are doing. he spent the night last night, this morning we were talking about herpes and all the risks involved. i guess i'm trying to convince him that it's ok to start a sexual relationship. he's very worried about contracted this... which is understandable. but i'm starting to get kind of sick of this. he gets to be pleased and all, but he won't do anything for me. i pretty much told him that if this doesn't go any farther, that we'll have to be only friends. it's really not all about the sex or anything... but it's really unfair for me. i give him pleasure that is risk free, and i go home all wound up....

and then things get more interesting. i have this friend in milwaukee that i've been talking to for a few months. i told him about how i'm kind of seeing someone, but not sure where it's going. he got sad, and said, well i guess i'm out of the picture. so i told him about why i wasn't sure what was going on. (told him about the herpes) and he said that's cool. his last girl friend had herpes. and that he really likes me.... so i'm torn. i really like marvin, i want to see it go somewhere, but if he can't except me and my problem, it'll never work. and i like alex, we talk all the time, and he is excepting of me...... so i don't know. we'll see what happens.