random thoughts

our lips touched, and i felt a spark
you held my hand, and i melted
your eyes, so intense
look into mine, and all i can do is smile
i want to be held by you all the time
i want you to be in my life
but i have to tell you
that i'm not as perfect as i appear
my life took a wrong turn
it's been a long battle with coming to terms with this
so how can i expect you to understand
how i can i expect you to want me?
i can see your beauty and passion
it beams through your ways and words
i can see that you are something special
and i want to be a part of that
to hold your hand, and say it's all ok
when the world falls apart
but you need to know of the thing that inhabits my body
and the pain and sorrow it can bring
so, the choice is yours
hear my story, and live our lives to the best way possible.

it's been interesting

well lately things have been interesting.... i ended up sleeping with a friend of mine, who knows what's going on in my life... and it was great... and actually the greatest part of it all was that he does not have herpes, and really didn't care that i do. it made me realize that this really isn't the end for me...lol. i've read all these stories about people with it, and finding love. but nothing has been all that great for me. and we're not planning a relationship or anything. and it may have been just that one time. but hey, if he didn't mind, then other people won't either. (at least ones with an open mind, and understands the risks, and how to protect themselves) well, that's actually it on that part of life...lol. so i'll write again later.