well it's been a while. lots have changed since my last post. i no longer work at the child care center i used to.... i left there, and worked at a local bakery for the last year. and recently i am now employed with a new child care center.... yippy! 3 weeks, going on 4.

other than that, marvin and i are still together... but it's been rough. he is working now, at the same bakery i was at. so now that he has been paying halfies on most things, he feels like he is the king of all. he had an fight with my friend/ newish neighbors... and that was 5... maybe 6 months ago. the friend has said his sorries... and my love will not forgive, and tries to say that the friend of mine (of 12 years) is not allowed over. and shit like that.

but it hasn't been all bad with us. some things have changed, as some stayed the same. i'm still not sure where this relationship will end up. i cling in hope that there is really something other than the matter of convience. i love him, i want to be with him, and i have told him this more than once. so we have to see. will he pick me, and choose a life together... or will i say enough.... and try again.